Thursday, June 14, 2012

BeYoNd Death!

Note: This article is just my imagination and thoughts. It is no way written to hurt somebody's feelings or appose somebody's thoughts.

Lying on the floor, all alone, saw people standing in front of me, in fact, people surrounded each side of my body. They covered me with a white sheet, i didn't like it at all. People were crying because i won't come back in their lives again. I saw my family looking at me, consoling each other. If one started crying the other was trying to make them strong. Yes, i was dead. People saw me as a dead body with no life. Looking at them i thought i was not supposed to leave them at this point of time. They wanted me back, they wanted to touch me, they wanted to talk to me, they wanted to feel me. They were holding my hands and crying, shouting, blaming god for everything. They were blaming god for taking me away from them. People who came were asking for reasons; what happened?, how did it happened? Why this happened? Where this happened? and with whom it happened. Listening to them my soul was laughing, thinking " People do follow the 5 W's always". Coming back to reality, that i am dead, i tried to be serious. Although they can't see me but i was able to see them. I was just dead as my body couldn't work, i was not physically there but I could see everything, i could see every action happening in the room. I could see the haphazardness.

I was alive. My soul was alive, active and still young. I could not understand why these people could not see me. I was standing next to my mom, of course not physically. Looking at her, i tried touching her, I tried to tell her that i am with her no matter what happens. I wanted to tell her, that although my body does not exist anymore, my soul is still alive. I wanted to tell her that i will be in this home with her forever. But could not. I realized the only difference between being alive and dead is the physical existence. As my physical existence was dead, they could not see my soul. The kidney was not pure, heart was not pumping, blood was not passing through the veins as it should have been. The parts were dead and so i could not survive. Everyone in the room were silent, looking at me.

I was the celebrity of the day.They gave me the utter attention of the world. People who never came to see me where consoling my parents saying " Don't worry, everything will be fine". "It happens" they said. Hm..I thought who are they? I never saw these people in my life. I wish if they would have met me when i was alive. The attention, the love that they are showering on me, if, they would have showed me when i was alive. I wish if people would have told me before that they love me, if people would have told that they admire me, or if they would have once told that i am a important part of their life. Now when they are crying, i want to talk to them, but i am dead. I am no more physically present. When they are coming to see my dead body how does it matters to me? I can't thank them, I am not able to hug them, or love them. I wish if we would have met when i was alive.

Coming out of the thoughts in my own world, I saw people were making me ready for the funeral. I could not believe that i am no more alive in this world. I was in a different world of liveliness, away from fear, away from hurt, away from anger, away from lies, and away from the eagerness to find someone or achieve something. I realized i am no more a person who have to prove to the world about my existence. I was no more a person living for money, i was a spectator who can see the happenings, but could not react or could not talk, or could not interact anymore with people. I could not advice, i could not help, or i could not contribute anything to the world. I was just a spectator.

Walking down the road, on someone else's shoulders, while I saw the last time, where I spent my life, the memories rolling down in front of my eyes. Neighbors house where i used to run for anything , the temple where i used to go with my father, the trees that me and my mom brought when i was a kid and we grew them in front of our house, the shop where I used to go to bring some groceries, and the "Rathore Ice cream wala" from whom I used to buy two scoops of ice cream everyday with cherry on top. In no time they burned me. I was no more in this world existed physically. But I was alive. I went back with my mom as a soul, just that this time without expectations, and without any give and take relationship! I walked back holding her hands, which she didn't knew. I was not dead, but my body was. I think that's why we say people never die, they are with you, and they are watching you if you are happy or not. If you are sad they are sad as well, and if your happy they are happy with you. Remember they only difference is, "They are the spectators and not the players anymore".



Sunday, June 3, 2012

FAnsssssss!!!!!!!!!!!! :P Appreciators! A thank you!

"Every artist was first an amateur. But I think It is not for you. Your blogs are very inspirational and very touching... Keep it up :)" 


This is one of my most favourite compliment that i received recently on the blog from someone whom i don't even know! Also the best one to start the article with.  

This article is nothing but a thank you to all the readers of the blog. For people who like my work, and send me e mails, and comment on the blog letting me know the developmental areas. I have always said this like thousand times, but i want to take another opportunity to "Thank you" all for your time, and liking and visiting my blog.

okay after the above speech lets have some fun. I am going to share few e mails and comments in this article and that i really really love. People comment few awesome things about the writing and the blog and i think that should be shared by the readers, so that they know..that i am reading them, and most importantly appreciating them! This is not at all to make fun of the e mails received but appreciating them. Also there are no names of the people who commented that i am gonna share in the Article, because privacy needs to be maintained. I am sure people who commented would remember their comments( Hopefully).!!

E mail Number 1 : This one is my favorite as the way it has been written is Amazing. Just like the way i write my Articles, Dreamy world kind of!:)

Hi Amrita,
Just to introduce myself, I am *******, friend to ********** n a colleague to u as well, currently working as a SAP Consultant in ********.


Dis morning, after having a coffeee. I had opnd my FB... while i was going thru my frnds updates... I saw your profile on d right pane "People you may know".... D first impression, I had on you was ur "pretty luksssss n ur cute smile"....
I felt to know more about you and pretty interesting and took sometime to luk into ur FB profile. But, I am really impressed with your blog....I must admit to you that ur content is very very inspiring and I have become a great fan of your blog...Believe me friend, you have made my day even more happier than I would be.

I wish that you would accept me as your frnd.. I am sure that you would not disappoint ur fans.... But pls continue your blogging as your writings are Truly inspiring me...


Have a wonderful n colorful weekend.


Luking forward to meet you in near future. Probably, I can c u on monday if you guys are not moving to G block...

Warm regards,
************
PS: I think i have seen you in cafeteria...

Wow! it feels great to read such e mails and comments about the blog, and of course me as well! No...No..no..i did not accepted this person's friend request.


E mail number 2 : This e mail i received some year and a half back when i recently started writing. I was really not sure if i would continue writing or that would be my last article written. But here i Am!!! So e mail number 2-


Hi Amrita

I am *****. Recently I was reading at your blog and I notice that you are in a lot of pain. Your blog is very interesting and nice. It gives a message to all those who have gone through this phase in their lives. Why dnt you continue writing your blog , may be you can quote some interesting things which happened and you are happy to be a part of it. I knw I am nobody to advice you but i just shared my thought with you. 

Are you working or studying? I dnt knw if I would get a reply to this e-mail. All the very best and Keep bloggin :):) take care byeee


thanks
****

Hmm.. i did replied to the above e mails saying a warm thank you! But i don't know who that person is and how he looks like or if he is still reading my blog. Hopefully he is reading. 

Now few comments that i really love and are soo damn Genuine. I love people who actually comment not just to comment but letting their heart out. I have been really lucky in getting readers who actually let me know how things are going and what should be improved. 


#1: hi dear.. it was an alarming moment for me.. tht u have been writing so better.. where was uer hidden talent all these days.. the story u dipped ur pen in isnt any way wrong.. it really is the fantasy world tht people live in .. and at times i do love my fantasies.. tht includes some of my special frnds... u knw i count on u for most of the things... and i m glad tht u are mt frnd...
all the best for every thing..
and keep writing.. 
i will be the obedient reader to these posts tht i promise...

#2: Nicely written...You seems to open a book of thoughts:)


#3: Now this one is one of my Favorite. 



nice name of your blog... "Ruler"... to be honest I really like the name... but I certainly belive and will always believe that .. there are certain things in life which are immeasurable and it is better to leave them that way.. especially "pain" and "love" 


Now that I myself in love with someone.. I could empathize you more than ever... and I just wish to God that plz plz plz plzzzzzzz... for heaven's sake don't break somebody's heart. It is terrible to show the heaven and then shatter it like a glass... it's not just heart which breaks .. it is the entire world of that person and the people related to person that breaks ... I could really FEEEEELLL more than before how terrible it feels when someone show the dreams and ...let it go... forever...

The words and the way you have expressed is absolutely fantastic .. and it can bring tears .. this is to emphasize the fact that you have successfully conveyed your inner emotions.Good or bad.. happy or sad... you have expressed everything quite nicely..

Keep writing .. and keep living...

Sometimes we take too long to that realize that living means life and it is full of it..

Cheers!!!!!

#4: God deep analysis Rita,

i agree as many good blog posts and blogs are going un-noticed, as they really do not reach the wider audience .. unlike big websites where a picture of vidya balan , saying " meet the dirty girl" gets lot of likes..

there are audience for those type of posts. 

But again to mention the people who write original unique quality content will win in the long run..

you need to focus on how to make your blog available to wider audience also.


www.readitt.in (the e magazine)

#5: OMG.. I READ THIS POST 3 TIMES,WHY 3 ?
cause this post have potentially gravitation for original Blogger(not me) really...


hoping for learn something new from your next post..........

#6:  TOUCHY TOUCHY POST :) CHEER UP by thinking awl 4 gOOD :)

#7: Emotionally charged and honest to the moment when this all is felt
I believe its posts like this justifies the existence of the blogging sites. Posts like these in which feelings, emotions, desires, hopes, fears and everything felt in a lone moment are poured into.
Kudos

#8:  it's your starting of blogging but you proved yourself with your post that "Look at Me,i m not a beginner"  
Fan...!! Truly..so well expressed..!! Hats off...!! 
clear blogging.. 
one of the best post of this blog i read.you are going rock...soon u will be have a TAG ---
"Best Indian Blogger"

#9: A perfect blogging i m seeing.
this one is just like as you stole activity of bloggers.
really !! you are growing to greatness !!!!

#10: And to tell you guys i love Lengthyyyyyyy comments!:P

Well it happens to most of us…. But its difficult to remember what we thought just a minute before… as hell lot of thoughts go through our mind….. its interesting that u were able to recollect and write it down…….. someone said to me that we should look at our life as a person standing at the corner of the road.. sees the traffic passing by……… u did the same thing...... (sorry for the lengthy comment :P)

#11:  
I thought it was going to be some boring old post, but it really compensated for my time. I will post a link to this page on my blog. I am sure my visitors will find that very useful.
Cbse sample paper

#12:  Wow..!! this blog I like d most Ma'am...really this is what only a writer could notice....!! I really salute u for this blog.....!!! Great going..!

#13: your every post silently say some-thing in my perception 
I Mean-
clearly ! "measurement of life"
perfectly touched it:)

#14: Lovely content and a deep concentration on the reality of life... And as you mentioned in your last paragraphs, there could have been at least one such person who could have guided her through the right path, for this I have only few words to say. It is important that we maintain a good and in fact healthy friendship with old buddies and with the present colleagues. Some may still glide our ships to the wrong direction, but some may still hold the wheel to help your sails go straight. It is necessary that we find such people in our lives. And being professional should never be compared to having such great relations. It can be that you find sweet people in the company, but their sweetness may be really harmful at times. It is necessary that one should maintain some distance between their office colleagues

#15:  Did this really happened to someone???……… it all happens because of competition…….. it can happen over a period of time…. But suddenly your colleagues saying bad things about you……. Strange… also if you want your existence to be felt… its upto u ….. u can do it by your work and behavior…….. in short u need to decide what u want to be remembered for and what people might say at your back…. And offcouse…. This world is jealous… they will try to pull down…. But we need to continue…… and yes don’t worry nothing will happen to your existence J

#16:  Very sad to read such cruelty of human beings, but this is the reality of life. People of try to pull you down when they see your inclined success. We need to be as cruel as others to feel our presence amongst others. The earth revolves.... dark and light keep on playing with each other... But still it revolves… everything will be all right… 
Hard reality but nice one…

#17:  Very expressive. Takes courage to share. Cheers!

#18: amazingly well written..... the love can be felt in the words written.. as we start reading.. above movie starts running in front of our eyes.... remember the dialogue from movie NAMASTEY LONDON .. "Ishq di mere mitra pehchaan ki, mit jaave jado jid apnaan di"... it means pyaar ka asli matlab usse pana nahin hota... :P................. ......................... haan agar mil jaye to phir baat hi kya :)

#19:  Amazing!!!very well chosen words, thoughts and amazing expressions.. dear you are doing a wonderful job by expressing your thoughts through this medium.. keep up the spirit and I shall look forward for your next one...

#20:  Well written and very well explained the bitter truth that exists……. First I thought why it is happening in our society… than realized that this is how it is happening since ages in our society…. It’s changing and it will take time… Off course women are not here to do only the things mentioned in your article… nothing should be imposed on them… even their view should be taken…. In terms of capability they are not at all less than men…….. women play very important role if any decision has to be made in a family… it will be good if they play same role in building society and country…………………….. One thing that I miss in my life is having a real sister….. Miss it badly……


#21: ""What if i want to study further,
what if i wanna have my identity ? 
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it's really heartbreaking paragraph which i like most 
trust,today i am sharing this article on net as much as i can.

#22: Chor ka apna koi jigar nahi hota..ye bat to apne suni hogi right, vo kudh dara hota hai ki usko koi pakad na le, If I would have been in your position whould have complained to bus driver and asked him to put that man out from bus and to co...mplain to police...you should have trust on India Police....agar hum log ye samajh ke hi chup hojaye ge ki vo badla le ga...to uski himat aur nahi badhe gi..ajj apko kal kisi aur ko aur parso kisi aur ko vo tease kare ga kyu ki apne use ye bata diya hai ki ladkiya darti hai...you should have courage inside you so that you should feel secure...instead of writting here and complaning try to act...its better to DIE than to SUFFER.
Don't only complain...just act...we are also free in this Independent India..."Mr Rapist" no one just the bloody Cowardness of ourself..
Grow up!! pick the sowrd up and bring revolution...difficulty is nothing just a path for our success

#23: Nicely written.. Specially the last two paragraphs …. Initial 3-4 paragraphs could have been touch better…. Off course girl’s can’t stop travelling alone, they have to prepare themselves to face such incidents and society too need to act in timely manner to avoid such type of cases…… frankly speaking guys are more responsible for such type of incidents…. Aur unka kuch nahin ho sakta… u have to be prepared….

#24:  
Very well written..
About the issue : yes its bad that it happned.
Our country is on th everge of change But its not easy staying ion here.
Delhi / NCR region sucks in this matter.
And yes Kuch logo ka kuch nahi ho sakta , better be prepared.

#25: You are right - never compare relationships. Sometimes there is a big difference between what the outside world sees and what is actually inside the relationship.
Good Blog
Keep Blogging
Regards
Vikram


Huh i know this is a long article and too many comments. But i need to include all my favorites. I have few more, but didn't want it to be like a     book Article. Till then see ya! 

Happy blogging!





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