The BreakUp.....Yes the Breakup!!

"Promise me you will never leave me!" He thought for a while and said "I promise, I ll be with you forever." With a child look i said "But i am scared what if you leave. I am scared if i will ever be able to live my life without you. I am scared to see the way relationships are breaking these days. I am scared." Holding my hands, trying to calm me and make me fell good he gave a kiss on my forehead, looking into my eyes he said " Baby you are my life, how do you expect me to live without you. You are my morning and my night end with a thought of yours. You are the sunshine of my life, you are my every breath. How can you think i will be able to breath without you? His words made me feel a lot better and comfortable. I let me head to relax a bit on his shoulder. He led down his head on mine. It was breezy and the most perfect weather for the night. We were sitting next to the marine drive in Mumbai. One of the most romantic places to spend time with your loved ones. I looked at the water, that was touching my feet. Sun was setting and moon was rising up. Few kids were selling heart shaped balloons, few were selling roses.Looking at the sky, balloons were flowing in the air, I don't know when did i fall asleep on his shoulder. He kept holding my hands.

I my sleep, i went into the flashback. I loved someone else before i met him. He was my life. He was the one i trusted the most in this world. I loved him, i cared for him. He was my first love. He taught me how to fall in love. He promised me everything in life, he promised he will never leave me alone in any time of my life. He promised me he will stand by me forever until death do us apart. We were in love crazily and i thought it is forever and ever. He was the one who taught me how to trust someone...and he was the only one who taught me that never trust someone so deeply that if that person leaves you you should not be able to live.

One fine day, We were sitting just like this in front of the ocean, i was holding his hands, and i found him somewhere lost. I asked him what's wrong. He answered saying " Hm..nothing, just thinking about something" .I joked around and said " that's fine. you can tell me if you love someone else. I won't mind". He looked at me and asked " Will you be able to live without me if i won't be there in your life anymore?". I knew he was kidding me back. I said yes of course. I know nothing is forever. I am an independent women and i can take care of myself. But one thing is sure that i won't be able to fall in love again, because i love you sooo soo much. No one in this world can take your place. I asked him " Will you be able to live without me baby? You won't leave me ever i know. "I trust you' i said" I trust you more than i trust myself. I know you love me and you will never leave me alone. He was quiet for sometime. I was quiet. We were looking at the water, i felt life needs a way. I wanted him to tell me that he want to marry me. I wanted the relationship to stay forever. I knew he was the one for me. We had been together for long time, almost Six years.

I realized someone is waking me up. Oh it was him. Tear rolled down my eyes, and he said what happened. I am with you forever. I looked at him with eyes full of dreams, thinking yeah " That's what he said - I ll be with you forever baby, I won't leave you ever and look what he did to me."I talked to myself.

We took a auto to go home. He dropped me home and left. I started crying, crying out loud. I still couldn't believe that he left me. I was devastated. I wanted to kill myself for trusting someone so much. How stupid i was to think that people do what they say. How stupid i was to think that people always fulfill their promises. He left me in middle of the road after making all such promises. How, how damn stupid i was. I didn't realized then that he stopped calling me as often he used to. I just didn't noticed that he was not that excited to meet me like in the beginning. How stupid i was think that he was busy all the times, even when i used to be free for him always. Huh....i was in love..it was my first love. I loved him from my heart, and my mind was not working. First love always gives you pain, because then you are innocent of the consequences. When i walked down the empty streets, trying to call him and set things correct, he was happy in his life and was falling in love. He asked me to move out of his life and not to create any issues in front of the person he loves. It seems he didn't wanted to hurt her and the family.

I never thought i will be in love with someone else. Falling in love was as if i am cheating on someone. Infact i never wanted to trust anyone, i didn't wanted people around me. I wanted to be alone, all alone. I wanted to be with myself, not talking, not doing anything in the world, not going out. Listening to the sad songs, being more sad. I tried everyday to make things right, but i didn't realize that if someone does not love you, you just cant force to love him back or to fall in love. Love is something that comes from heart, and his heart didn't beat for me. I was idiot, i was a moron.

Splashed water on my face and tried sleeping. Thinking He is no more in my life, I hate him. Door bell rang. "At this time?" i wondered. Opened the door. What are you doing here? you went home right? He said" No, i couldn't go home. Wanted to ask something. I said yeah say. He continued "Its your birthday today and i wanted to ask if you love me then can we spend our whole life together? Can we get married? My parents are coming tomorrow. I want you to meet them. "Sure" I said. It's not the end of my life. Its the beginning. And i need to move on.

I thought what people say is true " If it's not forever, it not at all love".

P.S.: A breakup is not the end, but the beginning of a new relationship, with yourself and with someone else who love you more than you ever thought. A break up is something that makes you realize your own worth and how important is trust in a relationship.

A break up is the beginning and not the end for sure.
  
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